So, today I am 24 weeks pregnant. They say once you reach 24 weeks they will do all they can to save your baby if, heaven forbid, something should happen. But, would they really be able to do much in an area where the closest NICU is 2 hours away by car and probably about an hour by life flight? I sure hope I don't have to worry about finding out!
Eric and Bretton have both felt the baby move within the last week. It's nice to not only feel him moving myself, but to see their reactions when they get to feel him. Plus, it's fun to watch the movement from the outside and not just feel it from the inside. He's got some strong arms and legs already!
Well, Eric got hired for a part time position at the Hospital- which he is very happy about. It's where he has wanted to work all along. But, he can't start orientation until he is listed on the CNA registry, and apparently that can take about a month to get on. I'm hoping he doesn't lose the position in the meantime because they don't want to hold it or something, but I bet they must know how long it can take and he was honest with them about just finishing the course, so hopefully they want him enough to wait!
Well, tomorrow is Easter. We are planning to go to sunrise service and breakfast, I think. Bretton is going to do an Easter egg hunt with Ronica's girls tomorrow either before or after Easter dinner and of course, we will be having Easter dinner- at Denise's like every year. I am so thankful to have them as my friends and family and am glad to be able to spend the day with them.
I suppose I should get myself together for the day. There are plenty of things to do!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Time passes by
Time passes by. Sometimes slowly, and other times too quickly. The past few weeks have been pretty busy, between appointments, work (both Eric and I), cleaning and rearranging bedrooms, along with some shopping in Augusta today and a family trip yesterday.
Our room is pretty much complete in the way of organizing and rearranging. Now we have to decorate it. We have been slowly buying some things for it. We have been given some wall decor in the celestial theme, which is what we want to do, so all we have had to do is on on to it! It's been a bit of a struggle in a way though, because things either don't match exactly, or we have trouble finding items that go with the theme. We did find a few things in the past few days though. We bought a couple of metal stars and a metal sun that we are going to paint, and a small mirror that is in the shape of a sun with a moon on one side. Also, we bought some big wood letters for both Bretton and baby, in their initials. We got these cool 3-D glitter stars and suns to add onto the letters. We still need to buy paint for it all though. Bretton wants to do his in either Orange and hot pink, or in black and blue. We are doing the baby's things in blues and yellows (for the most part anyway). Finding moons has been the hardest part though. Hopefully what we have gotten from a friend will have enough to counter-act everything. - Oh, and we also bought some cool fabric for another sling. I'm excited to get working on painting things and putting stuff up.
Yesterday, Eric and I took Bretton and his friend Michael to Joker's. It was a lot of fun, but tiring! The boys played laser tag, went on the rock climbing wall and bounce house, played in the amazing playhouse and enjoyed the arcade games. Eric and I played a number of arcade games as well. The boys left with a number of goodies from their tickets they earned to cash in for prizes and Eric used his tickets to buy a huge stuffed banana that he names banana-nana. After our day there, we stopped at Big Lots in Auburn on the way home, took Michael home and then enjoyed a few hours at home before taking Bretton to Michael's for the night. We stayed at Michael's for awhile and played a neat train game of some sort with Michael's mom, Nancy, and another couple that was there. It was an enjoyable evening, but a late one that brought me home exhausted!
We have some buys weeks ahead, and I am hoping that they fly by. The pregnancy seems to be going so slowly which is driving me insane! I just want it to be over with and have our baby at home with us, in our arms!
Oh, and Eric has a job interview for the hospital on Monday. I hope and pray he gets the job. I know he really wants it.
Our room is pretty much complete in the way of organizing and rearranging. Now we have to decorate it. We have been slowly buying some things for it. We have been given some wall decor in the celestial theme, which is what we want to do, so all we have had to do is on on to it! It's been a bit of a struggle in a way though, because things either don't match exactly, or we have trouble finding items that go with the theme. We did find a few things in the past few days though. We bought a couple of metal stars and a metal sun that we are going to paint, and a small mirror that is in the shape of a sun with a moon on one side. Also, we bought some big wood letters for both Bretton and baby, in their initials. We got these cool 3-D glitter stars and suns to add onto the letters. We still need to buy paint for it all though. Bretton wants to do his in either Orange and hot pink, or in black and blue. We are doing the baby's things in blues and yellows (for the most part anyway). Finding moons has been the hardest part though. Hopefully what we have gotten from a friend will have enough to counter-act everything. - Oh, and we also bought some cool fabric for another sling. I'm excited to get working on painting things and putting stuff up.
Yesterday, Eric and I took Bretton and his friend Michael to Joker's. It was a lot of fun, but tiring! The boys played laser tag, went on the rock climbing wall and bounce house, played in the amazing playhouse and enjoyed the arcade games. Eric and I played a number of arcade games as well. The boys left with a number of goodies from their tickets they earned to cash in for prizes and Eric used his tickets to buy a huge stuffed banana that he names banana-nana. After our day there, we stopped at Big Lots in Auburn on the way home, took Michael home and then enjoyed a few hours at home before taking Bretton to Michael's for the night. We stayed at Michael's for awhile and played a neat train game of some sort with Michael's mom, Nancy, and another couple that was there. It was an enjoyable evening, but a late one that brought me home exhausted!
We have some buys weeks ahead, and I am hoping that they fly by. The pregnancy seems to be going so slowly which is driving me insane! I just want it to be over with and have our baby at home with us, in our arms!
Oh, and Eric has a job interview for the hospital on Monday. I hope and pray he gets the job. I know he really wants it.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Too much to do!
I feel like there is just too much to do and not nearly enough time to ever do it all in! Today we went grocery shopping and are now working on cleaning and rearranging our bedroom. We are at a stand still with it right now though, as we wait for our friend's to come pick up our old dresser that we no longer want. Then, we can rearrange, clean and put things away. I'm hoping we can manage to find a way to put the bed in the room that gives us more space, but it's not looking to promising.
Yesterday we went to Portland. Bretton had an indoor soccer game first, then we headed down. We went to the Old Country Buffet for lunch then walked around the mall a bit. Bretton wanted to see if they had some different TV shows on DVD at Best Buy, but they didn't, so we ended up at F.Y.E and both Eric and Bretton got something there. We also went to a few baby stores, but everything was just beyond expensive, and I don't see how we can justify spending so much money on tiny clothes that won't fit 3 months later.
I did find some things at Motherhood Maternity though. I really needed some pants and shirts, so I got one pair of pants and two shirts. I couldn't believe how expensive everything was, but what else was I going to do? Not many of my clothes fit me anymore, and buying bigger regular sizes weren't really cutting it either. So, we decided it was worth spending the money on a few things and I'm just hoping I can get part of that money back by selling them on eBay or something after the baby is born.
We also went to Babies R Us, which was the main reason I wanted to go to Portland in the first place. We looked around quite a bit, but didn't find too much that we wanted to spend money on- just yet anyway. We did however find a few things. Eric found a bib that he was ecstatic about so we bought it. (His excitement came from the fact that the bib said "If you think I'm cute, you should see my dad.") We also bought some onsies, a sweatshirt and an Ocean Wonders Space Saver Seat and Swing. I really like swings and wanted one, but since we have such a tiny apartment, we didn't want to buy a regular sized one. I think this one will work out just fine; I hope!
As each day passes I get more excited to meet our little boy! Even Bretton was happy to go baby shopping, which I thought was awesome! I can't wait to see him as a big brother! It makes me so happy to know that he is finally going to have a sibling that he has long desired and that Eric and I are adding to our family. :)
Yesterday we went to Portland. Bretton had an indoor soccer game first, then we headed down. We went to the Old Country Buffet for lunch then walked around the mall a bit. Bretton wanted to see if they had some different TV shows on DVD at Best Buy, but they didn't, so we ended up at F.Y.E and both Eric and Bretton got something there. We also went to a few baby stores, but everything was just beyond expensive, and I don't see how we can justify spending so much money on tiny clothes that won't fit 3 months later.
I did find some things at Motherhood Maternity though. I really needed some pants and shirts, so I got one pair of pants and two shirts. I couldn't believe how expensive everything was, but what else was I going to do? Not many of my clothes fit me anymore, and buying bigger regular sizes weren't really cutting it either. So, we decided it was worth spending the money on a few things and I'm just hoping I can get part of that money back by selling them on eBay or something after the baby is born.
We also went to Babies R Us, which was the main reason I wanted to go to Portland in the first place. We looked around quite a bit, but didn't find too much that we wanted to spend money on- just yet anyway. We did however find a few things. Eric found a bib that he was ecstatic about so we bought it. (His excitement came from the fact that the bib said "If you think I'm cute, you should see my dad.") We also bought some onsies, a sweatshirt and an Ocean Wonders Space Saver Seat and Swing. I really like swings and wanted one, but since we have such a tiny apartment, we didn't want to buy a regular sized one. I think this one will work out just fine; I hope!
As each day passes I get more excited to meet our little boy! Even Bretton was happy to go baby shopping, which I thought was awesome! I can't wait to see him as a big brother! It makes me so happy to know that he is finally going to have a sibling that he has long desired and that Eric and I are adding to our family. :)
Thursday, March 4, 2010
It's A Boy!
Yep, you read the title right. I didn't want to know, I wanted to wait until the birth, but we had the ultrasound tech right it down for us. We then decided to go ahead and find out since I was 99% sure that it was a boy and Bretton and Eric wanted to know. So, I was right!! We are all very excited and looking forward to the day that our son/brother is born!
Other than that, our boy was measuring 10 ounces and as far as we know is healthy! I have an anterior placenta though, which is what is making it hard to feel the baby moving and making the movements I do feel very soft and sporadic. The tech said it could be longer than "normal" before I really feel a good amount of movement. But that's ok, as long as everything continues to go ok I don't mind waiting for the big punches! Though, Eric and Bretton would probably like to feel some movement soon.
Well, that's it for tonight. I'm feeling queasy and worn out.
Other than that, our boy was measuring 10 ounces and as far as we know is healthy! I have an anterior placenta though, which is what is making it hard to feel the baby moving and making the movements I do feel very soft and sporadic. The tech said it could be longer than "normal" before I really feel a good amount of movement. But that's ok, as long as everything continues to go ok I don't mind waiting for the big punches! Though, Eric and Bretton would probably like to feel some movement soon.
Well, that's it for tonight. I'm feeling queasy and worn out.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
What a weekend
So, it is currently Sunday evening. Tomorrow I go back to work, after a four day weekend, that wasn't planned. We had snow days both Thursday and Friday. I'm actually looking forward to going back to work. One of my biggest things about staying home is I find myself bored or annoyed with something to do with our apartment. (I wish we could just move already!) Also, for some reason I can drink all my water through out the day at work with no problems, but at home, I find myself pushing the water at the end of the day because I didn't get it all in sooner. I wonder why that is though. Ah- oh well.
Eric is currently at one of his clinicals. Bretton and I actually had to go bother him today because he had my debit card and I needed it to put gas in the car and go to Wal*Mart. I felt bad to disturb him, but I didn't have any other way to do it. He looked like he was enjoying himself though.
Yesterday we went to Strong and helped prepare food for Chris and Bri's wedding reception. We then came home, took showers and headed back for the wedding. The wedding was beautiful, and Chris and Bri looked absolutely amazing! They seemed happier than ever and it all seemed to go pretty well. I can't wait to hear about their honeymoon!
Today, Eric, Bretton and I went to Salem to pick up Bri's car so that we could take it to a mechanic to be looked at. We are considering buying it, but want to know what a mechanic says first. Well, we didn't end up bringing it home. We left, with Eric driving Bri's car while I had the van and was leading him. I looked in my mirror a few times to make sure he was there and at one point he was gone. I slowed down, thinking he would show up, but he didn't. I found a place to turn around (which wasn't easy considering the amount of snow everywhere) and went back to find the car in the snowbank. He said the power steering stopped working and he went off the road.
So, Bretton and Eric pushed the car while I drove it out of the bank. I then took it down the road a bit to see how the power steering was, and it was definitely gone! I checked the fluid, which was pretty close to full, so I knew it wasn't that. We decided to take it back to their house as it would have been nearly impossible to drive it all the way to Farmington. Eric wanted to drive it as he was worried about me and the baby, with the amount of force I had to use to steer the car and probably the possibility of going off the road, but I felt it would be easier for me to drive it than for him to. No offense to him, but I am stronger than he is and he was already off the road once. Anyway, we made it back. Too bad it wasted a lot of time and gas for nothing!
So, I may have mentioned this before, but I'm too excited not to say it again! On Thursday we have our anatomy ultrasound!! :) I am excited to see the baby, but very worried too. I'm hoping my fears and worries aren't justified. In the meantime, I am trying to not get too stressed over it, and am also focusing a lot on trying to decide what to do. I want to wait to find out the gender at birth, but Eric and Bretton would like to know the gender now. I guess in a way, I wouldn't mind knowing, but I don't want others to know and I know there is no way Bretton can keep it a secret. I am sooo confused as to what to do!!
Either way, I love you wiggleloo! (Daddy says that is your new nickname!) Can't wait to meet you!
Eric is currently at one of his clinicals. Bretton and I actually had to go bother him today because he had my debit card and I needed it to put gas in the car and go to Wal*Mart. I felt bad to disturb him, but I didn't have any other way to do it. He looked like he was enjoying himself though.
Yesterday we went to Strong and helped prepare food for Chris and Bri's wedding reception. We then came home, took showers and headed back for the wedding. The wedding was beautiful, and Chris and Bri looked absolutely amazing! They seemed happier than ever and it all seemed to go pretty well. I can't wait to hear about their honeymoon!
Today, Eric, Bretton and I went to Salem to pick up Bri's car so that we could take it to a mechanic to be looked at. We are considering buying it, but want to know what a mechanic says first. Well, we didn't end up bringing it home. We left, with Eric driving Bri's car while I had the van and was leading him. I looked in my mirror a few times to make sure he was there and at one point he was gone. I slowed down, thinking he would show up, but he didn't. I found a place to turn around (which wasn't easy considering the amount of snow everywhere) and went back to find the car in the snowbank. He said the power steering stopped working and he went off the road.
So, Bretton and Eric pushed the car while I drove it out of the bank. I then took it down the road a bit to see how the power steering was, and it was definitely gone! I checked the fluid, which was pretty close to full, so I knew it wasn't that. We decided to take it back to their house as it would have been nearly impossible to drive it all the way to Farmington. Eric wanted to drive it as he was worried about me and the baby, with the amount of force I had to use to steer the car and probably the possibility of going off the road, but I felt it would be easier for me to drive it than for him to. No offense to him, but I am stronger than he is and he was already off the road once. Anyway, we made it back. Too bad it wasted a lot of time and gas for nothing!
So, I may have mentioned this before, but I'm too excited not to say it again! On Thursday we have our anatomy ultrasound!! :) I am excited to see the baby, but very worried too. I'm hoping my fears and worries aren't justified. In the meantime, I am trying to not get too stressed over it, and am also focusing a lot on trying to decide what to do. I want to wait to find out the gender at birth, but Eric and Bretton would like to know the gender now. I guess in a way, I wouldn't mind knowing, but I don't want others to know and I know there is no way Bretton can keep it a secret. I am sooo confused as to what to do!!
Either way, I love you wiggleloo! (Daddy says that is your new nickname!) Can't wait to meet you!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
"Snow Day"
So today was a "snow day", yet there wasn't that much snow. There was some this morning, then rain all day. We went to the store around 12:30 this afternoon and the roads didn't seem too terrible, which made me frustrated that school was canceled for the day. I know that they have to make a decision early in the morning, and they do what they think is best. It's just frustrating that it means we have to add days on at the end of the year. What ever happened to built in snow days? As of right now, I am about 90% sure that we are going to be in school until June 21st, and that's if we don't have any more snow days!
So, what have I done all day? Let's see... oh yes, I laid in bed for awhile instead of getting up when I usually would. I watched House, went to the grocery store, cleaned up the kitchen, watched some more House, played Hand and Foot with Bretton and now I am writing this while I make dinner.
Bretton is busy knitting and Eric is at one of his clinicals and won't be home until after 10 pm. We have a busy day tomorrow with work and whatever after school activities we can fit in (including getting a second car I think). Then on Saturday our dear friends are getting married so we will be busy helping set up for the reception and then actually attending the ceremony and reception.
Oh, and in one week we get to see our baby with another ultrasound! We can't wait! I'm just praying and hoping that s/he is growing healthy and strong. We are all so excited to meet him or her! I already love him/her so much. :)
So, what have I done all day? Let's see... oh yes, I laid in bed for awhile instead of getting up when I usually would. I watched House, went to the grocery store, cleaned up the kitchen, watched some more House, played Hand and Foot with Bretton and now I am writing this while I make dinner.
Bretton is busy knitting and Eric is at one of his clinicals and won't be home until after 10 pm. We have a busy day tomorrow with work and whatever after school activities we can fit in (including getting a second car I think). Then on Saturday our dear friends are getting married so we will be busy helping set up for the reception and then actually attending the ceremony and reception.
Oh, and in one week we get to see our baby with another ultrasound! We can't wait! I'm just praying and hoping that s/he is growing healthy and strong. We are all so excited to meet him or her! I already love him/her so much. :)
Friday, February 19, 2010
Finally!
We bought a car! I am so glad to not have to beg people for rides anymore! To be able to leave my home; to not feel stuck anymore! What a relief. Too bad it cost more than we wanted to spend, but we are hoping it will be worth it in the long run. Now we need to insure it and register it. I'm hoping the registration isn't too much, though it seems like every year the amounts and rules change!
Eric has his class final tomorrow, then starts clinical's Sunday. We have our ultrasound March 4th, our first Centering Pregnancy group March 11th and then Eric has his State Exam for his CNA certification on March 12th. Busy, busy.
Speaking of Centering Pregnancy, I am very curious to start it and see what we get from it. It's an evening "class" for pregnant women and their significant others. Instead of going to your OB for check ups you have everything done at the class, unless it's an ultrasound or something "big". You also get to talk about things and hear/learn about parenting, babies, pregnancy, etc. I already have a child, so I may feel like I've heard it all before, but I thought it would still be good to go to- a refresher if you will. Plus Eric hasn't done this before, and it would be nice to do it together.
So, it's once a month for a few months, then changes to be more often. I asked to be in it at the beginning of the pregnancy, but apparently they forgot or didn't call me in time, because the group we should have been in has already started. Oh well, we will just be further ahead than the women in the one we are starting. They are all due in August and September, while we are due in July. Either way, I'm looking forward to it.
Eric has his class final tomorrow, then starts clinical's Sunday. We have our ultrasound March 4th, our first Centering Pregnancy group March 11th and then Eric has his State Exam for his CNA certification on March 12th. Busy, busy.
Speaking of Centering Pregnancy, I am very curious to start it and see what we get from it. It's an evening "class" for pregnant women and their significant others. Instead of going to your OB for check ups you have everything done at the class, unless it's an ultrasound or something "big". You also get to talk about things and hear/learn about parenting, babies, pregnancy, etc. I already have a child, so I may feel like I've heard it all before, but I thought it would still be good to go to- a refresher if you will. Plus Eric hasn't done this before, and it would be nice to do it together.
So, it's once a month for a few months, then changes to be more often. I asked to be in it at the beginning of the pregnancy, but apparently they forgot or didn't call me in time, because the group we should have been in has already started. Oh well, we will just be further ahead than the women in the one we are starting. They are all due in August and September, while we are due in July. Either way, I'm looking forward to it.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
No!
Well, I caught it. The dreaded stomach bug that Eric had. And I tell you, it's horrible!
That is all.
That is all.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Blah
That's about how everyone here is feeling, with Eric being the worst. Bretton and I just have headaches and upset tummies, but nothing major- yet. Hoping it doesn't go past that point! Eric on the other hand, was extremely ill yesterday and while he is doing better today he still isn't completely better. I'm hoping he is feeling much more himself tomorrow though. He missed work last night and tonight, and he also missed his last CNA class tonight.
So, we bought a few cute outfits today for the baby. They are more "boyish" than gender neutral, but we don't mind if a girl wears blue. We actually prefer it that way! And Eric really liked one of the outfits cause it refers to "daddy"- though I can't remember how. We also bought a prenatal heart listener for only $20 and tried it out when we got home. It's crazy how much the baby is moving around in me. It sounds like a drum solo at a rock concert! This particular monitor also allows you to record the sounds so I will probably try that out in the next few days or so and see how that works out.
Well, that's about it for today. I'm hoping we can go out to do something tomorrow, but we have to wait and see what the weather does. Ta ta for now!
So, we bought a few cute outfits today for the baby. They are more "boyish" than gender neutral, but we don't mind if a girl wears blue. We actually prefer it that way! And Eric really liked one of the outfits cause it refers to "daddy"- though I can't remember how. We also bought a prenatal heart listener for only $20 and tried it out when we got home. It's crazy how much the baby is moving around in me. It sounds like a drum solo at a rock concert! This particular monitor also allows you to record the sounds so I will probably try that out in the next few days or so and see how that works out.
Well, that's about it for today. I'm hoping we can go out to do something tomorrow, but we have to wait and see what the weather does. Ta ta for now!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Valentine's Day
I never really understood why, or who, made this stupid holiday up. Yes, I buy something special for Bretton every year and allow him to buy stuff for others. I even got something for Eric. But seriously, shouldn't every day be treated as though it is Valentine's Day? Shouldn't people who love each other always be doing something nice for each other, and not just once a year? Even so, I plan to give Eric his stuff, and we are going to go to lunch with some friends. Though, for me, it is more just going out to enjoy it, than it is for a specific day or reason.
Anyway, Bretton's team lost their game yesterday. They were down three players while the other team actually had all their players this time! The game was very close the whole time though and there was almost no way to definitely know until the last 50 seconds or so as to who was going to win! It's sad though- I mean, I'm not one who thinks it's all about winning. I always say it's about having fun and doing your best, but this one time it would have been so great if they had won. Eric didn't get to see any games due to his CNA class always being at the same time. If they had won, they would have gone on to a night game this week and then he could have gone. But, such is life. They did a great job and I am proud of the way Bretton played.
So, Eric is going to try to switch shifts at the nursing home. I think he enjoys the night shift, but he's so tired for days after as his body doesn't want to let him sleep long enough to catch up during the day. He is going to see if he can can be per diem instead. He will easily get plenty of hours still, as they need people for all shifts. They just don't have the coverage that they should have. Bad for them, but could potentially be good for us. Once Eric is done his CNA classes and clinicals, I am hoping he can work a good 5 days or more a week so we can start putting some money aside. We really want to move sometime- the sooner the better. He owes his parents money as they loaned him the first half of what we had to pay for his CNA class, and we (obviously) have a baby on the way that we want to put money aside for in case we need it. Especially since I won't be working this summer and am also hoping to get September and maybe October off from the next school year. That would be 5 months of me not working so any extra money we can put away will help alot.
Well, I should go get myself ready for the day. It's almost 11 and Bri and Chris will probably be calling me in a few short hours and I haven't even gotten dressed yet! I'm such a bum sometimes!
Anyway, Bretton's team lost their game yesterday. They were down three players while the other team actually had all their players this time! The game was very close the whole time though and there was almost no way to definitely know until the last 50 seconds or so as to who was going to win! It's sad though- I mean, I'm not one who thinks it's all about winning. I always say it's about having fun and doing your best, but this one time it would have been so great if they had won. Eric didn't get to see any games due to his CNA class always being at the same time. If they had won, they would have gone on to a night game this week and then he could have gone. But, such is life. They did a great job and I am proud of the way Bretton played.
So, Eric is going to try to switch shifts at the nursing home. I think he enjoys the night shift, but he's so tired for days after as his body doesn't want to let him sleep long enough to catch up during the day. He is going to see if he can can be per diem instead. He will easily get plenty of hours still, as they need people for all shifts. They just don't have the coverage that they should have. Bad for them, but could potentially be good for us. Once Eric is done his CNA classes and clinicals, I am hoping he can work a good 5 days or more a week so we can start putting some money aside. We really want to move sometime- the sooner the better. He owes his parents money as they loaned him the first half of what we had to pay for his CNA class, and we (obviously) have a baby on the way that we want to put money aside for in case we need it. Especially since I won't be working this summer and am also hoping to get September and maybe October off from the next school year. That would be 5 months of me not working so any extra money we can put away will help alot.
Well, I should go get myself ready for the day. It's almost 11 and Bri and Chris will probably be calling me in a few short hours and I haven't even gotten dressed yet! I'm such a bum sometimes!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Twenty-one days and counting
So, another day has almost past and life is about the same as usual. Except for Eric working 10pm to 6am, three nights a week. Which leaves me with an empty bed those nights and a cranky over tired husband who can't seem to sleep more than 5 hours a day when he gets home. I'm sure it is very hard on him, but I am also sure that if he gives his body some time (a month or more at least) he will start adjusting, but we shall see.
Tomorrow is the last day of school/work before February vacation. While I am looking forward to having a week off, I'm dreading it as well. Without a car we are stuck at home with nothing to do, no where to go. If that happens I will go insane. I am so tired of being stuck at home all the time and not being able to go out when I want and where I want. I am just praying that our tax return comes soon and that we can find a car worth buying ASAP.
On Saturday, Bretton has basketball. It is a play-off game and his team is currently number one so if they win they go to the championship game. If not, their season is over. I'm really hoping they win because that will mean Eric should be able to make it to the championship game. He hasn't been able to go to any games since he always has class on Saturdays, but the championship game will be a weekday evening!
Well, on a final note, we had another prenatal appointment today. The baby was moving all around so it took a few minutes to get the heartbeat for more than a second at a time. I had some blood work done and then scheduled our next appointment at the OB's office along with our anatomy scan (the *big* ultrasound). I can't wait and will probably be counting down the days. It is on March 4th, which is in 21 days; the reason for the title of this blog.
Can't wait! As much as I don't like the pregnancy symptoms, I love this child so much already and am excited to meet him or her in July!
Tomorrow is the last day of school/work before February vacation. While I am looking forward to having a week off, I'm dreading it as well. Without a car we are stuck at home with nothing to do, no where to go. If that happens I will go insane. I am so tired of being stuck at home all the time and not being able to go out when I want and where I want. I am just praying that our tax return comes soon and that we can find a car worth buying ASAP.
On Saturday, Bretton has basketball. It is a play-off game and his team is currently number one so if they win they go to the championship game. If not, their season is over. I'm really hoping they win because that will mean Eric should be able to make it to the championship game. He hasn't been able to go to any games since he always has class on Saturdays, but the championship game will be a weekday evening!
Well, on a final note, we had another prenatal appointment today. The baby was moving all around so it took a few minutes to get the heartbeat for more than a second at a time. I had some blood work done and then scheduled our next appointment at the OB's office along with our anatomy scan (the *big* ultrasound). I can't wait and will probably be counting down the days. It is on March 4th, which is in 21 days; the reason for the title of this blog.
Can't wait! As much as I don't like the pregnancy symptoms, I love this child so much already and am excited to meet him or her in July!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Another day has come, but not yet gone
Good morning. I have been up for a few hours, though if my husband didn't have to get up for class and my son didn't have friend's over, I probably would still be in bed! But, alas, I must get on with the day, and maybe I will take a nap this afternoon.
The boys will be leaving soon, and since I have no way to get Bretton to his basketball game today I suppose we are just going to stay home and be lazy. I feel bad though- he has missed almost every other game this season do to either not being able to find a ride or him being gone to camp. Today is his last regular season game, then play-offs will begin next week. I really hope that his team makes it past the first elimination game so that he can play a few more and hopefully Eric can make it to at least one then.
Wow, I'm not feeling well right now. I ate breakfast already, which usually helps with the nausea but apparently not this morning. I guess I better go find my sea bands. Maybe I will add another blog later today if I get super bored. Though I somehow doubt it.
The boys will be leaving soon, and since I have no way to get Bretton to his basketball game today I suppose we are just going to stay home and be lazy. I feel bad though- he has missed almost every other game this season do to either not being able to find a ride or him being gone to camp. Today is his last regular season game, then play-offs will begin next week. I really hope that his team makes it past the first elimination game so that he can play a few more and hopefully Eric can make it to at least one then.
Wow, I'm not feeling well right now. I ate breakfast already, which usually helps with the nausea but apparently not this morning. I guess I better go find my sea bands. Maybe I will add another blog later today if I get super bored. Though I somehow doubt it.
Friday, February 5, 2010
And so it goes
So, it is around 8:30pm and my husband is already in bed. He actually went in about an hour ago. He worked his first night shift last night, and though he slept some today, it wasn't enough. You could see the exhaustion in his facial expression and movements. I hope he sleeps well tonight as he has to get up at 7 to go to his CNA class. But, all in all, I think he enjoyed working and is looking forward to having a job and contributing to our financial needs.
My son was supposed to go to basketball tomorrow, but since we don't have a ride he will have to miss it. Again. So far this season he has only made it to every other game and there are only like 2 more before play-offs. I sure hope we get a car soon or someone can bring us to the rest of the games.
As I sit here typing, my son and two of his friends are laying in bed watching a movie. They wanted to stay up and be loud, playing Nerf dart guns and stuff, but I had to put an end to that when the hubby went to bed. Which, to be honest, I'm not disappointed that they had to stop. It was loud and annoying and I am too tired to deal with all the ruckus. I want to go to bed now, but feel like I should stay up a bit longer to make sure the boys are all set for the night and so on.
The last two days at work have been different. The student I usually work with for most of the day has been out so I did a lot of photocopying, reading up on some fraction material, helping some other students and other odds and ends. It was quite different, but nice at the same time. I wonder what next week will have in store, especially with it being a 4 day week, since Friday the school is having a Winter Fun Day. February break starts right after, so I'm expecting the students to get more and more antsy as the week progresses.
Anyway, I am off for tonight. My back, hips and sciatic nerve are aching and sitting here any longer may kill me! Time to get this 15 week along (unborn) baby and myself to bed!
My son was supposed to go to basketball tomorrow, but since we don't have a ride he will have to miss it. Again. So far this season he has only made it to every other game and there are only like 2 more before play-offs. I sure hope we get a car soon or someone can bring us to the rest of the games.
As I sit here typing, my son and two of his friends are laying in bed watching a movie. They wanted to stay up and be loud, playing Nerf dart guns and stuff, but I had to put an end to that when the hubby went to bed. Which, to be honest, I'm not disappointed that they had to stop. It was loud and annoying and I am too tired to deal with all the ruckus. I want to go to bed now, but feel like I should stay up a bit longer to make sure the boys are all set for the night and so on.
The last two days at work have been different. The student I usually work with for most of the day has been out so I did a lot of photocopying, reading up on some fraction material, helping some other students and other odds and ends. It was quite different, but nice at the same time. I wonder what next week will have in store, especially with it being a 4 day week, since Friday the school is having a Winter Fun Day. February break starts right after, so I'm expecting the students to get more and more antsy as the week progresses.
Anyway, I am off for tonight. My back, hips and sciatic nerve are aching and sitting here any longer may kill me! Time to get this 15 week along (unborn) baby and myself to bed!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
*Snore*
Seriously, I am so tired! I thought this whole being exhausted part of pregnancy only got better as time went on, but I see that someone was very wrong in informing the world of this. Of course, it doesn't help that I am so uncomfortable sleeping at night that I wake up every few hours. And when I get home from work I am exhausted and sometimes nap, making me less able to sleep through the night. Gah! I know, I know, it's all a part of being pregnant and will help prepare me for life with a baby. When did I ever say I wanted more children anyway?? My son is almost 11. That means he will only be with me another 8 years or so (although he insists he is living with me forever). Am I crazy for starting all over again? Because that's how I feel! I'm actually very happy to be having another child, with and for my husband, who "desperately" wants children. It's just frustrating to have to go through all the "symptoms" and craziness. Why can't our bodies be good to us for the duration of pregnancy?
Anyway, my son has basketball today. He was also doing an after school program but he decided to be done with that one. I think he missed coming home after school with me and having that extra time to do stuff before dinner and homework and so on. I think it's sweet that he wants to be with me, but I wish he would have finished this one season at least since they only have like 2 weeks left. But, I am one of those people that feels that a parent should never force their child to do an (optional) activity if they don't want too. I encourage and even tell him to give it some time before making his decision, but if in the long run he still doesn't want to do it, I won't make him.
So, because we have basketball to go to, I need to get moving around here and get some things done. Then, after basketball we will be doing our usual grocery shopping so we probably won't be home until late this afternoon. As much as I need to shop I wish I didn't have to spend the day doing it. I just don't have the energy.
Oh, and yesterday marked the beginning of the second trimester! Some say it starts week 13, some say week 14, so I went with 14. We had an appointment Thursday and they found the heartbeat fairly quickly. My husband and son were both with me for this one. My son had never heard the heartbeat before so we wanted to let him see what it was like. He was happy that they found it. So was my husband and myself! I can't wait to feel this baby move now- though I know it will be another 6 weeks or so.
Well, I am off for the day. Who knows what it will bring that isn't planned!
Anyway, my son has basketball today. He was also doing an after school program but he decided to be done with that one. I think he missed coming home after school with me and having that extra time to do stuff before dinner and homework and so on. I think it's sweet that he wants to be with me, but I wish he would have finished this one season at least since they only have like 2 weeks left. But, I am one of those people that feels that a parent should never force their child to do an (optional) activity if they don't want too. I encourage and even tell him to give it some time before making his decision, but if in the long run he still doesn't want to do it, I won't make him.
So, because we have basketball to go to, I need to get moving around here and get some things done. Then, after basketball we will be doing our usual grocery shopping so we probably won't be home until late this afternoon. As much as I need to shop I wish I didn't have to spend the day doing it. I just don't have the energy.
Oh, and yesterday marked the beginning of the second trimester! Some say it starts week 13, some say week 14, so I went with 14. We had an appointment Thursday and they found the heartbeat fairly quickly. My husband and son were both with me for this one. My son had never heard the heartbeat before so we wanted to let him see what it was like. He was happy that they found it. So was my husband and myself! I can't wait to feel this baby move now- though I know it will be another 6 weeks or so.
Well, I am off for the day. Who knows what it will bring that isn't planned!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Memories
Well, the title may say memories, but that doesn't mean I am going to share any specific ones! (Though I might.) It's just that I was filled with many memories today. Memories of when my son was born. Memories of being a single parent, raising a a child of the opposite gender and really having no idea what to do when certain situations arose. But, looking back, and imagining what the future holds, I don't think I have done too shabby. My son is well cared for and loved very much. Watching him grow up has truly been a blessing. He has been one of the biggest blessings in my life.
Of course, the memories came flooding to me because, well, I am so overly emotional right now it isn't funny! So, when he came up to me at school today (I work in the same building that he attends) and told me about how he broke the zipper on his hoodie and how I he forgot his DS at home and had this look in his eye that said "Mom, even though I am 10 and don't always want you around I do still need you!" I was reminded of how good it feels to be needed and yet, how scary and frightening that feeling can be.
Now, being reminded of the frightening aspect of it all, I wonder how I will be with a new child. Yes, I have done it once, but that was 10 years ago! I feel as though I've forgotten everything, and worry I may not have any idea this time. Yes, I have someone to help now; an amazing guy who is already an amazing husband and step-father so I know he will be just as great as a" first time dad" but still, that doesn't change my fears and worries.
While I remember all the great things about raising my son and all the wonderful memories I have, there are plenty of memories of hard times, struggle, emotional pain, physical pain between my own body and my son's every time he got hurt. The guilt and worry of all the stuff that "went wrong". How do I correct those things this time, but still raise my children fairly and equally? And really, how does someone raise a set of siblings that have are over a decade in age difference?
I suppose only time will tell...
Of course, the memories came flooding to me because, well, I am so overly emotional right now it isn't funny! So, when he came up to me at school today (I work in the same building that he attends) and told me about how he broke the zipper on his hoodie and how I he forgot his DS at home and had this look in his eye that said "Mom, even though I am 10 and don't always want you around I do still need you!" I was reminded of how good it feels to be needed and yet, how scary and frightening that feeling can be.
Now, being reminded of the frightening aspect of it all, I wonder how I will be with a new child. Yes, I have done it once, but that was 10 years ago! I feel as though I've forgotten everything, and worry I may not have any idea this time. Yes, I have someone to help now; an amazing guy who is already an amazing husband and step-father so I know he will be just as great as a" first time dad" but still, that doesn't change my fears and worries.
While I remember all the great things about raising my son and all the wonderful memories I have, there are plenty of memories of hard times, struggle, emotional pain, physical pain between my own body and my son's every time he got hurt. The guilt and worry of all the stuff that "went wrong". How do I correct those things this time, but still raise my children fairly and equally? And really, how does someone raise a set of siblings that have are over a decade in age difference?
I suppose only time will tell...
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Just an update
Well, it's been awhile since I last posted, though not a whole lot has happened. Other than work, home life and a trip to Radiology for an emergency ultrasound last Monday. Basically, that was a scare and a half that we certainly did not need- not that anyone needs a scare.
So, what happened? Well, I woke up in the night to use the bathroom to find some spotting and cramping. I didn't worry too much as it wasn't too bad and I figured it could have been from a number of things. But, when I got up an hour or so later the spotting was a bit more and pretty red with cramping so bad, including lower back pain similar to back labor. I started freaking out at this point. This is basically how our miscarriage began 4 months ago and that's all that I could think of. I tried hard to just breathe and relax but it was no use, a sudden wave of worry and grief hit me hard and I was crying hard. I went back to my room, waking Eric up with my crying and told him what was going on.
For the rest of the night I couldn't sleep. I think I slept maybe 2 hours total, more drifting in and out than anything. I finally decided that I needed to call the OB on call. I knew that no matter what was happening, there wasn't much that they could or couldn't do other than an ultrasound to see how the baby was doing but that was more than I had at the time.
As I waited for the OB to call back I debated on whether I should go to work or not. I decided to go in and do as much of the day as possible until I could get in to see the doctor, if they would even let me. By the time the doctor called and said I needed to go as soon as possible, it was past 7am, pretty late to be calling into work but I had no choice. I made the call and then again waited for another call from the OB for specific instructions on when and where to meet her.
At 11am, we went to radiology for an ultrasound. As I lay there I wasn't sure what to think about more, the results of what the ultrasound would show or the fact that they required me to have a full bladder and by now I really had to empty it! I just kept pushing the urge to pee aside as I watched the screen for the next hour. The news was great- baby has a strong heartbeat of 170 bpm, measured a day ahead and was moving around like crazy. But, I still worried, and still am. We were told 4 months ago that things looked ok and then a week later we lost the baby. How am I to know for sure that won't happen again? I suppose the only way to know is through time. So, I pray continually for the health and safety of not only my husband, my son and myself, but for this unborn child. I continually ask God for peace, wisdom, understanding and strength. And most importantly, I pray that my faith in God doesn't waiver because of things that have happened or things that may happen.
As of now, things seem to be going ok, and that's all I can ask for. Our next appointment is January 28th, and I can't wait. I just want to hear the heartbeat again, to know that everything is going well and that we are past the first trimester. I am excited to meet my new child, to see my husband with his first born, and to have my son have a sibling. Here's to hoping and praying for a healthy 6 more months!
So, what happened? Well, I woke up in the night to use the bathroom to find some spotting and cramping. I didn't worry too much as it wasn't too bad and I figured it could have been from a number of things. But, when I got up an hour or so later the spotting was a bit more and pretty red with cramping so bad, including lower back pain similar to back labor. I started freaking out at this point. This is basically how our miscarriage began 4 months ago and that's all that I could think of. I tried hard to just breathe and relax but it was no use, a sudden wave of worry and grief hit me hard and I was crying hard. I went back to my room, waking Eric up with my crying and told him what was going on.
For the rest of the night I couldn't sleep. I think I slept maybe 2 hours total, more drifting in and out than anything. I finally decided that I needed to call the OB on call. I knew that no matter what was happening, there wasn't much that they could or couldn't do other than an ultrasound to see how the baby was doing but that was more than I had at the time.
As I waited for the OB to call back I debated on whether I should go to work or not. I decided to go in and do as much of the day as possible until I could get in to see the doctor, if they would even let me. By the time the doctor called and said I needed to go as soon as possible, it was past 7am, pretty late to be calling into work but I had no choice. I made the call and then again waited for another call from the OB for specific instructions on when and where to meet her.
At 11am, we went to radiology for an ultrasound. As I lay there I wasn't sure what to think about more, the results of what the ultrasound would show or the fact that they required me to have a full bladder and by now I really had to empty it! I just kept pushing the urge to pee aside as I watched the screen for the next hour. The news was great- baby has a strong heartbeat of 170 bpm, measured a day ahead and was moving around like crazy. But, I still worried, and still am. We were told 4 months ago that things looked ok and then a week later we lost the baby. How am I to know for sure that won't happen again? I suppose the only way to know is through time. So, I pray continually for the health and safety of not only my husband, my son and myself, but for this unborn child. I continually ask God for peace, wisdom, understanding and strength. And most importantly, I pray that my faith in God doesn't waiver because of things that have happened or things that may happen.
As of now, things seem to be going ok, and that's all I can ask for. Our next appointment is January 28th, and I can't wait. I just want to hear the heartbeat again, to know that everything is going well and that we are past the first trimester. I am excited to meet my new child, to see my husband with his first born, and to have my son have a sibling. Here's to hoping and praying for a healthy 6 more months!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Another day gone
Today was an uneventful day. Went to work, though I wasn't feeling up to it. Luckily, I got there to find out that it was a pretty easy day (not that most days aren't, just a different type of easy). There was a Civil Right assembly this morning which was pretty good, then in the afternoon there was a one man fiddler concert. He was awesome!
Besides that, life is same old. Tomorrow we will reach the 11 week mark of the pregnancy and so far things seem to be going well, other than the awful symptoms! My son is almost constantly asking if he can tell people about becoming a big brother- he even just asked again! We told him near the end of January, but honestly, almost everyone we know already knows so I don't see why it matters. Even if for some reason God sees fit to take our unborn child home, people will still know/find out. Maybe I can convince my husband to just let him tell all he wants now.
My son is also busy doing basketball, both for the areas rec department and the after school program they have for it. He complains about his body being sore when he gets home, but I know he enjoys it and I just keep telling him it's good for him. What a mom I am... haha!
Well, I am going to go find some food or something. The feeling of absolute hunger has overtaken me most of the day. I'm afraid I may not find anything I actually "want" to eat though.
Besides that, life is same old. Tomorrow we will reach the 11 week mark of the pregnancy and so far things seem to be going well, other than the awful symptoms! My son is almost constantly asking if he can tell people about becoming a big brother- he even just asked again! We told him near the end of January, but honestly, almost everyone we know already knows so I don't see why it matters. Even if for some reason God sees fit to take our unborn child home, people will still know/find out. Maybe I can convince my husband to just let him tell all he wants now.
My son is also busy doing basketball, both for the areas rec department and the after school program they have for it. He complains about his body being sore when he gets home, but I know he enjoys it and I just keep telling him it's good for him. What a mom I am... haha!
Well, I am going to go find some food or something. The feeling of absolute hunger has overtaken me most of the day. I'm afraid I may not find anything I actually "want" to eat though.
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