Wow. I've had such a horrible day today, and it isn't even over yet. :\ I have eaten so much junk it isn't funny. I feel like giving up on eating healthy and exercising. What is the point? I feel like no matter how hard I've worked in the past or how hard I work now, I will never be as thin and healthy as I want to be.
I can't motivate myself, and feel like I have no one else to motivate me. Eric says to do what I want, encourages me only when I tell him that is what I need, and keeps saying he loves me how I am. You know what? I'm glad he loves me for me, but I don't, and I would think he would want to help me to do whatever it takes to learn to love myself. To become happy with who I am, what I look like, my life, etc.
I've been so down with my life and myself. I know a huge part of that is because of my weight. But, I can't help myself when I have no one else who cares.
I give up.